Princess Diaries No. 12: Nancy Jean
by Caleb Nichols
All the poets who don’t know it:
my mom, when she said
I found a bee,
dead on the steps, with a full load
of pollen on its legs,
which made it so much
sadder,
or when she told me
that she felt her dad’s death
was the first snag of a sweater
unraveling,
or her glass jars of urchin
shells & sea glass, the ramshackle
precision of their arrangement,
or her
winding conversations with ravens
and crows, & her belief
that this is how
the dead come back
to have a chat,
or how she keeps her pantry
stocked in a way that sings a song
of abundance & comfort in boxes,
cans and tins, tetris’d together
so expertly,
her carefully curated collection
of objects displayed on the beam above the
threshold of the kitchen — kissing dolls from
Chinatown, ceramic salt & pepper shakers,
the tiny wooden house from Germany,
a broken kewpie statuette
glued together, inscribed NICKIE,
the nickname her mom
gave her dad,
all these loose threads
she’s woven back into a weave,
to staunch the creeping dark,
like any poet
does.
Photo credit: Brian Wangenheim
Caleb Nichols
Caleb Nichols (he/they) is a writer from California, occupying Tilhini, the Place of the Full Moon, the unceded territory of the yak titʸu titʸu yak tiłhini tribe. His poetry has been featured in <i>Hoax</i>, <i>Redivider</i>, <i>DEAR Poetry Journal</i>, & other places & his chapbook <i>Teems///\\\Recedes</i> was published Kelp Books in 2021. He is a PhD candidate in Creative Writing at Bangor University in Wales & he is the founder of the SLO Book Bike, a queer-owned, bike-powered, pop-up bookshop in San Luis Obispo, CA.